To those fellow readers that constantly follow my blog, I know. I’m so sorry I’ve been gone for almost two months. Time is funny. I did not even notice it has been two months that I have not written in my blog but I can fret about minutes passing that I do not get a text message. Perception, right?
I went through some interesting personal stuff these past couple of months. In an effort to make myself as transparent as possible, go ahead over here.
But this post is a love story about one consistency that has always been in my life. Yes, it even beats my son because he is barely going to turn two in July.
I realized how little I’ve been paying attention to my love for soccer. I just entered my sixth month of my second pregnancy so playing soccer has been out for the last three months (yes, I played while I was still pregnant). Co-parenting where it is roughly about 80/20 and you’re giving the 80 percent leaves you focusing on preschool drop-offs, cooking (okay, microwaving or easy-make “cooking”), baths, daily walks for engagement and bed times that most 22-year-old would call “getting ready” left me little to no time to focus on soccer.
Also, my lack of social media presence these past couple of months left me really in the dark about what was going on. I did not realize this until I came into the living room a couple of weeks ago and heard my dad talking about Mexico having a friendly against Guatemala on May 30th.
I just stood there in shock, “There’s a friendly coming up?”
So much time had passed. And I had not been focusing on what I really love. I mean, I love my son and that’s a very important person. I will love my second child when he is born. But I did not love myself. Or what was always driving me to chase my dreams, which was soccer.
I did not even know what was going on with each player, what the roster looked like for Copa America, when Copa America even started and thoughts started running through my head. What about the Gold Cup team? What is the schedule like? What has been written about the team? How are they doing? What’s Herrera been tweeting? I had been missing out on so much.
My good friend Geo told me today, “Amy, passion is what makes everyone do things. If you find passion (you found yours in your kids and journalism) it's like falling in love. You want to do everything in your power to keep your passion.”
I know someone who wants to be a photographer. They are very passionate about it and they bought their first camera recently in order to pursue that dream. I have been sitting down with them telling how great it is to really want to achieve something and follow their dream, only to realize I’ve been limiting myself from doing mine.
My pregnancy puts me at a disadvantage where I cannot start trying to really be a sports journalist reporting at soccer games as quickly as I imagined myself to. It is going to take longer to achieve my goals
But for the meantime, I need to be proactive and take advantage of the moments that I can focus on my career and my passion of following the Mexico National Soccer Team. That’s why I created this blog to begin with!
So thank you, my fellow readers. For listening to me, for being consistent in reading my posts and for dealing with my hiatuses whenever I take them. Soccer is a beautiful sport and analyzing the Aztecs (ahhh ;]) is a great opportunity that I’m proud to have. Because the Mexican National Soccer Team is an amazing team. And I hope to continue convincing you of that.